if i said i was alright, i would be lying.

i either care too much, or not at all.
im either afraid to get hurt, or i want to hurt myself.
if im not wanting to be alone then im lonely.
im either annoying and goofing off or im upset.

i have no middle ground anymore. its just one or the other.

i am fucked up, a bitch, annoying, indecisive, depressed, anxious, nervous, paranoid, scared, a terrible human being, sick, twisted, dying, suicidal, emotional, stupid, useless, worthless, lazy, judgemental, selfish, inconsiderate, easily angered, easily upset, lonely, pathetic, a loser, anti-social, undeserving, a waste, a disgrace, a failure, a monster, a freak, a demon, insecure, afraid, needy, forgetful, hypocritical, difficult, oblivious, not helpful, childish, immature, psycho, unstable, unreasonable, ugly, clingy, unsure of mysel, crying. but most of all, im terrible.

scvlptures:

depression is when you don’t really care about anything

anxiety is when you care too much about everything

and having both is just like what

im screaming, crying.

scratching the skin till it bleeds.

clawing out my eyes till im blind.

beckoning for you to come save me.

please rescue me.

help me. 

but you dont care.

not even a glance.

not a single twitch from your whole body.

you just walk away.

leaving while my thoughts bury me alive.